Jericho's Diary: Starting Over.

Only a few short days ago, I thought that I had everything figured out—that my problems were everyone else’s fault. Now, I’m starting to think that maybe I have some reconsidering to do, and it’s already time to start over.

First, there’s Elijah. Well, I guess it’s kind of impossible to talk about Elijah without Astrid, so there’s Elijah and Astrid. I just couldn’t shake the thought of the two of them out of my head, and it was seriously driving me a little crazy. I mean, he just liked him out of nowhere, and he took over my crush… I just feel jealous. Like Astrid had taken something from me that I never even knew I had.

After I snapped at Elijah in English class (well, more like snapped at his interpretation of The Great Gatsby), I knew something had to change. I mean, Elijah is my crush and Astrid is my family. I can’t be treating either of them like I don’t want them around. Plus, all the worrying and jealousy and negative energy was making me exhausted. And between AP English, and trying to be a good friend, I don’t have time to let bad vibes get me down.

So, I did the best thing I could think to do: I was honest. I told Astrid how I was feeling: a little envious of his closeness with my friends, and more than a little suspicious about him and Elijah. And guess what? He was honest, too. He assured me there’s nothing going on between him and Elijah, and that when it came to the Dance Brothers, he was actually the jealous one. I don’t want to say it made me feel better to know Astrid was also feeling insecure, but it did make me feel less alone.

So, what’s next in my honesty journey? Hopefully, giving advice to people other than myself in my new 'Hey Jericho' column. Then, maybe I’ll get the courage to be honest with Elijah and tell him how I really feel. Well, at first that would require knowing how I really feel…Wish me luck!