Jericho's Diary: Turn The Pain Into Pleasure.

So, just imagine being in a toxic relationship for five years or four plus years. You feel like that’s really the only way to have true love is if you go through and you encounter so much pain and just so much toxicity and you think that, that’s right. But then all of a sudden, a person that you met two months ago comes in and you feel like you’ve never felt before. So, when I say that he made everything bright again, it was like a refreshing love feeling, it was like a brand new love.

I was still getting over my ex or trying to. And he was still getting over his ex. So we were helping each other and comforting each other. And he was just telling me how he was hesitant and he was scared. He didn’t want to fall in love with anyone else because he doesn’t like the fact that somebody that… How can I say this? He doesn’t like when good luck turns bad.

And then you just turned into, not enemies with the person, but it’s just completely a whole I will say 180, because 360 is back to the same thing. But it does a whole turn around and goes left field. So he was scared. I wasn’t scared to fall in love again myself because I feel like, yes, it was a risk, but yes, I’ve been through it already. I know how heartbreak feels. So, if you take the risk, and it succeeds, it pays off. But if it doesn’t, it’s nothing I haven’t already felt.

So yeah, it’s definitely time that he gets on my nerves. I’m sure it’s times that I get on his but, when I say fight, I don’t mean actually fight. You have disagreements, have debates or just wake up on the wrong side of the bed one day. I mean, that’s, like I said, it’s normal couple stuff, it’s not the kind of thing that gets too crazy and it turns into something harmful, but no one’s perfect and we all have our thoughts we’re both not perfect people. 

So we do things and we make mistakes and we do things that we don’t agree with sometimes or each other doesn’t agree with it sometimes. So through all of that, still at the end of the night, I can be like, we can cuddle up again. Like it’s still the love there, we still there, we still got it.

He is really overprotective, he’s really mindful. He just brings a lot of wisdom to the table.

He’s older than me by just a couple of years, but things that I don’t think about because sometimes I’m like a really impulsive person. Sometimes I just act off of emotion and I do things that, sometimes I don’t make the best decisions and he comes in and balances it out. And I balance him out too, because he’s a really serious person, but I’m like that playful person that kind of brings him humor and all that good stuff.

We’ve always had trust in each other, we chose each other.